don't go there with your open heart

Posted by Robert Anderson On Thursday, December 31, 2009 0 comments




please don't go there with your open heart if day
 should close within on how you've sought for glory
my faith resides in how your inner fray
will leave you for how often you have prayed

so if your deepest thoughts have been the borer
of mournfulness to sadden you with gray
ensuingly as you tell me your story
please don't go there with your open heart if day

should live and die an unrecalled galore

and if it seems as if shadows remain
i'll try to lead your mind from all the horror
through every night until your doubt is slain


while as I whisper from where I still quarry
may this meet you faithfully halfway
to drain your pain from every dream of worry
please don't go there with your open heart today

when the silence invites me in

Posted by Robert Anderson On Wednesday, December 9, 2009 0 comments



when the silence invites me in
when the shadows take my heart
when the thought of never trying
embraces in the dark


when I fail to find my way
and drift into the night
when I can't help myself
from feeling quite as nice


when I dwell inside my head
when my blindness finds me there
I wonder if they see
how I hide beneath my layers


when I seem so much aloof
when my aim is so unfocused
when my intellect is off
I wonder do they notice?
 







Truth

Posted by Robert Anderson On Monday, December 7, 2009 0 comments




 
I confide in you
the truth which I have known

see I have died forever
and a day within my soul 
 
my scars lie inside
for I have not known love
and for those who I have trusted
I was never enough 
 
I've done wrong in my life
(no one is just a victim)
influenced by the bastards
who had me in confusion 
 
my mother never cared
so who was I to turn to
who'd teach me to be strong
I've struggled to emerge through 


the memories of abuse
both physical and sexual
for the years I hated myself
my thoughts were suicidal


I'm tainted and unstable
there's no reason to lie

and I feel like a waste
for the space I occupy


so maybe I'm not worthy
to be loved by another
because every time I try
they tear my world asunder 

 
I have so much anger
deep inside me like a burden
it's hard for me to trust
and that's all I know for certain

The Condition of Conflict

Posted by Robert Anderson On 0 comments



Warning: Strong language


call me a dreamer 'cause I'm often in my head
dear lord am I evil for the tears I don't shed?

see, I can't help it, not at all, my mind swerves and it spins
there are days when the craziness invites itself in
this whole world is a shit hole, we're all livin' in fear
even the wide-eyed are blind to what they see in the mirror
sometimes I fall to the darkness that society bestows
not knowing the difference between my friends and my foes
  for all the bad out there who can truely understand?
there just aren't enough answers to the questions at hand
the devil grins with a veil over humanities eyes
now how the fuck are the cosmos supposed to hear all our cries
you see, what's done in the dark will never fail to find light
it's uncommon nowadays for one to stand up and fight
oh, this is how it is, my every day is unjust
so how the hell am I to take it when I'm bound to combust?


obliquity

Posted by Robert Anderson On Saturday, December 5, 2009 0 comments



the faintest hope
here by my view
which i have bled
through shades of blue
a seldom touch
when my soul mourns
a lasting dream
in which i'm scorned
when my thoughts ebb
and flow toward
this feeling draws
like as a sword
then penetrates
into your heart
then causes me
to fall apart
like as prayer
i call to mind
your every whim
and how we'll bind
forevermore
into a sea
of nothing new
obliquity

snivel

Posted by Robert Anderson On Thursday, December 3, 2009 1 comments

we're together
grazing the asphalt

you taught me
how to destroy my every dream...
how to die with passion through each
turning lie

i tried, i tried...
until i could no longer feel
my soul

i can't help but to love
the way your breath
intermingles with the night air

it ripples an utterance
of why i
believe
you
complete
me

your face
achieves
an expression that
says it all:
you're utterly
nauseated

i snivel.

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